Psalm 56:3-4, 10-13

3-4 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.  In God, whose word I praise—in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

There are times in our lives when things do not work the way we planned, split seconds when things change, and those changes are usually not what we hopped they would be. All of the sudden, you go from all is well, to I can’t believe that this is happening.

Several years ago, I can remember one of those experiences in my own life. Faced with emergency surgery to save my eyesight. There was no room to think, or even to feel. As I laid on the bed by myself waiting to be taken back into the operating room, just me and God. I could barely comprehend what just happen. Just three days ago, everything was fine. Now here I am in this hospital bed waiting for surgery on my eye, and I was afraid. This time was different. I had gone into surgery before, but not like this. All the other times, had been by choice I had time to think about everything, but this was an emergency. There was something about this time, about going under that made me afraid, it was almost like for the first time in my life I was afraid I might not make it. I was only 34, with a young child, and a husband to think about, I needed to be here, I’m not ready to go. My father died at 35, and I knew that. I began to pray, and I went to my signature scripture, Psalm 23 and read, and pleaded with God for my life, I needed peace and I needed reassurance.

The noble and prideful me would like to have said that my fears settled at that very minute, but they didn’t it got better, but fear was still present, just not in the same way. God was with me, and I knew it.

As people who love God, we must realize that faith isn’t always simple. You grow, and you get better, you walk with God, and you come to see and know His work. You see that God can and that He will. You get like Peter and walk on the water with Jesus, and then something about you remembers oh my what am I doing and you fall, and then once again the lesson begins. I believe, but help my unbelief.

Things didn’t go the way I planned that night, I had worked myself up so much that they couldn’t do the surgery, and the doctor I so desperately wanted to do my surgery was leaving town. My family surrounded me and helped me make the decision that needed to be made. Every minute that the surgery was delayed, put the return of my vision in jeopardy, but God!

Today I have my life and my sight, and I have that experience. God is a healer, and He holds time and place, in His hands. He orchestrated this situation according to His will, and His timing. I am blessed, taken care of and loved by God, and so are YOU!

Take some time out to pray, put on the altar whatever is on your mind, your cares and your concerns. Walk through the history of your life with God, and remember who He is and who He has been for you! Use that as your springboard to trust Him for bigger and better things! In Jesus name, I pray Amen!  Trust Him today to be who He said He is.